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May 20, 2008
We're back from a short but lovely trip to Los Angeles to visit with family, see how much our older niece had grown (almost two!) and meet our newest niece (two months old!). I'm too tired from travel and rather glum to be back, however I will say that over the past few months a feeling has spread throughout me that came to an absolute head this weekend. I have never before had such an unbearable urge to be a mother. It is a compulsion that almost brings tears to my eyes at times and, contrary to the confusion that I had always expected might follow such thoughts, all I have felt is a calm.
Until my brain clears and I get more sleep, please enjoy this photograph of Izzy the Corgi. More later this week.
Posted by callalillie at May 20, 2008 7:28 AM | Introspect , La Familia
Lovely post and sweetie Izzy.
Posted by: Petrie at May 20, 2008 7:18 PM
I know that exact feeling too well since the last few months...
It's so strange to start to desire something that used to scare me so much in the past!
Posted by: SuperCath at May 21, 2008 10:31 AM
Posted by: Nicole at May 21, 2008 10:33 AM
who needs babies when you have IZZY! well, pictures of Izzy anyway.
Posted by: ChrisG at May 21, 2008 3:26 PM
It's really good to hear someone identify that feeling and define it. I'm always a little bit afraid that I have it and just don't know it, like when you sit in wet paint but nobody tells you and you walk around all day with bench stripes on your butt? You have them, but don't know it. But from your description I have a hunch that I'd KNOW it if I felt it. Which, for whatever reason, I don't.
There's just so much pressure sometimes that I question myself, if I know what I'm actually feeling or not. I live in Miami, which (like my husband) is purely Latin. So to be mid-30's and not have children, nor a plan for any, is tantamount to being a sideshow freak act for the circus.
"What you mean you don't have no babies?" If I had a nickel...
Posted by: JC at May 22, 2008 12:35 AM
You know, I felt that exact same urge 5 years ago (well, now I have 2 kids) and yes, it was so surprising how strong it was. I always figured that I would have kids "someday", but I did not expect that my body and hormones would actually "tell" me that it was time. So weird.
Posted by: Jenna at May 26, 2008 7:46 PM